Yesterday I doubted God was good, that He had my best interests in mind. I doubted that He knew what was best for me. It was a hard day, that had lots of crying involved.
The Lord had been telling me all week to wait on him, with my job situation. To trust Him with the job interviews that He had given me. But yesterday proved miserable. 2 of the 3 jobs that I applied for decided to go another direction. I was hurt and disappointed. Kept thinking I must be destined to have a crappy job. A job I hate.
I really wanted one of the jobs I was asked to interview for. I had already applied for 3 other jobs at this place and I was told the 3 times that they went with someone else. I thought this 4th time would be different, or I wouldn't have said yes I will go in and interview. I got frustrated mostly because they already knew that I had applied for 3 other jobs and then asked me for to come in for this one. I felt betrayed and cheated. Not mad that they didn't chose me as much as I was mad that the knew that this would be my 4th letdown. I was hurt.
Today is a different day. I still feel like I am in the wilderness with jobs, but I feel better. I am still mad and frustrated, but turning towards that and pressing into Him. I don't feel as hurt about the whole 4th letdown. I am trying to trust the Lord even though it is so hard.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Yesterday...was hard
Posted by Pea Pod Diaper Cakes at 10:50 AM
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Yes, my dear friend, patience and waiting are extremely tough! Keep your head up, He WILL DELIVER what is best for you. Miss you.
hey beautiful lady!
i was sad to read your blog. i love you and know that God has something in store for you...it might be a "crappy" job, but I know that God will use it to teach you and sanctify you. I will continue to pray for you.
Cass
I actually didn't even interview.
How did you know that I was asked to interview?
I had another opportunity that week and went with it and am very excited about it! I'll post more about that later.
To be honest, I was in a similar situation as I had interviewed for 2 other jobs previously. I was also asked to interview for those but got neither. I learned that I was 'idolizing' working there. So, this time around, I was thankful for the opportunity, but I knew that it wasn't for me. I echo Cassy...I pray that you are able to work through this and know that the Lord has something better for you in store. I have no idea who got it...I didn't even know who was interviewing.
The "waiting place" is so hard, but keep your eyes fixed on Jesus. His plan is so much better..
Praying for you and excited to see how God uses this time.
Love & Blessings,
Andi
I understand completely what you're feeling, as I have been struggling with the same situation for months now. Just remember (hard though I know it is) that God has your best interests in His plans, and He has things so much better for you in store - even if that means going through some growing pains right now. Be encouraged, be thankful, be blessed. You are so loved.
hey sweetie! i think it is awesome that you are so honest! I am praying for you!
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