I went to Orientation and realized the job was not for me..

So many of you have been asking for updates about the job interviews that I recently had. Well I was offered the job at GFM, and I took it, but it did not turn out the way I thought it would.

Friday I had orientation, and it did not go well. The job was made for someone that had way more experience than I currently have. It was not for a regular Admin, but for a Director of Administration. Pretty much for someone to run the office and do Admin stuff as well. So I got overwhelmed because everything they were teaching me I could not do and that was going to be my only day of training. I would be the only full-time person in the office, and the Director would be there, but it would be hard to ask him questions.

So needless to say it was more work than I could handle. It was stuff that I could learn, but it would be hard to learn it without someone to lean on. So Matt and I talked about it, and realized it was not the job for me. That I need something that needs a little less experience and someone to mentor me along the way. I had a long conversation with my boss and pretty much told him I would be a disservice to his ministry. He was well receptive, and I feel freedom.

I know that there is something out there for me. Something that I can do and excel in, I just have to trust God with that. Working at GFM was not that for me, even though I really thought the Lord was leading me there, but now I see He was putting up some markers in my heart about somethings that worried me for a reason. I am so embarrassed to write that I didn't take this job. But it a freeing thing at the same time. I need to listen to the Lord and not just appease men.

So I will close with a prayer...

Thank you for showing me o Lord that this is not where you have me. Lord I want to do your will above all us. Show me where you want me to invest in. Lord give me favor in the eyes of the hiring manager at the jobs that I am applying for. Lead me to your cross in whatever I do. Give me discernment about where I should go. Close doors and open others so that I may glorify you. Thank you for the support of my husband, who shows me your path and corrects me when I am heading off of it. Help me on this narrow path to find joy in you. Amen.